So last night...


Talent Show. It was fun. Lithium got third. Good Job to us, I suppose. But aside from all that Jazz, we had fun.


I felt awesomely accomplished when we were through with it..I have never actually devoted that much time to something AND gone through with it. I couldn't have done it on my own. So thanks to everyone who pushed me! It kinda meant a lot to me to feel like someone really, you know, cared about it, and it wasn't just me messing around with the guitar or something. And I hate to sound all corny and what not, but it meant a lot. You may never get it.


Okay, but along with the whole band/talent show thing came two things.. tension and more responsibility.


Okay.. tension and responsibility. My parents. I've ranted about them numerous times. I assure you.. spend more than 2 days with me... you will hear a rant.


So the whole reason, I even had the slightest amount of time to do the show was because I'm not doing track. I was supposed to be focusing on my grades.. or that was the original purpose I gave for not doing track. Cool, I planned on sticking with it.


The talent show had been mentioned.. this was like 2 months ago... I didn't take them seriously to be honest. I knew my guitar skills were seriously lacking (and still are, but not as seriously, apparently) and I figured there was no way they would actually use me in the show.. that would be outrageous.. I would never learn it in time.


Then we had our first practice.. I bombed. I knew it. It was obvious. Thought I was out. Then I WASN't! I was shocked, no doubt. But I had to learn the song over spring break.. somehow I accomplished it. Still don't know how I did. Either way, we practiced every Saturday for 4 weeks, and then Tuesday of this week.


But during this entire time.. my grades declined.. lets say DRASTICALLY. They are so far from hot.. they are in Antarctica. My parents are mad. I'll prolly have to give up music. I hope I bring my grades up, but grades don't mean as much to me as they used to.


Either way I'm sad the talent show is over. I feel some relationships will be weakened by the loss of this activity. I hope it doesn't change.. but it inevitably will. I've grown so close to the people in the group.. I hate to see it end. There has been talk of us staying together and continuing to play on our own. But who know if I'll be permitted to even do it. Either way I learned a lot from this whole experience. The whole responsibility thing hit me. When other people are relying on you, you had better pull through. And the whole performing thing.. I had never played the guitar for anyone really. not even my family. ahh well I have now.


This whole post was prolly a bit scatterbrained.. so unlike me. haha


Either way.. I loved it.. I would do it all again if given the chance. I will never forget it.



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